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YES I AM FLIPPIN DEPRESS, YOU HEAR ME? DEPRESS! I SWEAR IF I SEE AN ANT, I'LL KILL EM! I'LL KILL EM ALL!
alright, here the thing. i wont tell you why i am depress because i think you guys already know from the previous post that i'd posted. i feel like i am such a failure, loser, ungrateful little bitch. alright dont have to defend me saying
"of course you are not. got lots of things to do in life than just what you are seeing right now"
yeah yeah yeah, what you guys did not know is i am a bitch, a choosy bitch that do not deserve any special treatment that I've been getting since i was little kid. i have what i need and i got what i want. well, dont jump to conclusion that i am not grateful of what i got. it is just that i realize that all this thing that i have made me what i am today. i took advantage of it. i did not use of what i got for good purposes. i did not use it to make me a better person.i am such a shallow person.
so now, i want to start a new life, new me. if i given a chance, just one more chance to redeem what i have done before, i wont take it for granted. i can't. so, please god give me one more opportunity to redeem myself, to show you and my family that i am not as shallow, spoiled little brat as they might think i am. just once.
i have write this thing still this feeling wont subside. this uneasiness . i dont know what to do anymore. goodbye for now
